Tuesday, 18 October 2011

Things have been good for a while. For a long while actually, which made me really happy. But I'm having a few bad days now. I may have to give my cats away. My father can't stop complaining about them, because they make a mess, and break the plants, and sharp their nails on the cushions, and act kind of crazy sometimes. And now I'm travelling to Ribeirão more, to visit my mother, and he complains even worse when I'm there. I'm going to go there the next holiday, in about a month, and he said that he doesn't want to be left with them. I don't know what to do. I don't have money to put them in a hotel. I'm so sad with the idea that I might have to give them away. And I'm worried about Hedwig. She doesn't like to be with other cats, and whenever she's in a new environment she stops eating. I'm afraid if I send her to a shelter she'll stop eating and nobody will even notice. I'm gonna miss them so much if they have to go.
And on top of that I have to write a 20-page long paper, and I don't even have a topic. I've thought about two topics, but I don't think either of them will work. I can't even think of a new one, nothing that I could develop. And I feel completely useless and stupid, because I know lots of people who have written a lot more than this, and I think I won't be able to write this one. And I'll feel totally incompetent.
I just wanted to let it out. It's not making me feel better, though.

PS: Whoever wrote the anonymous comment on the last topic, thank you. And if you ever come back here, I would love to know who you are.